The past is one of those things that can haunt us. The what if's, the should haves, and things we left un-finished.
But sometimes we don't have a choice. Sometimes fear takes over. And sometimes we aren't given the option.
I live my life with my heart in a box. Or at least I think I have tried to. It's fragile and I really would rather not get it broken again. But I guess there comes a point where you have to stop being afraid. Someone told me trust isn't about another person...Trust is about you...and knowing that when it all falls apart, that you will be okay. Getting hurt sucks. Having your heart broken is one of the most painful experiences. BUT, it does heal, and the pain does fade.
One of my favorite quotes is:
"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. If you don’t start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who’ll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I’m not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you’ll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven’t lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived."
-- Meet Joe Black
I guess the ultimate goal is finding someone you are head over heels about. And not being afraid to fall, hard and fast. I listen to my head far too much. I worry too much. I pull away too much. Afraid that they may not like me. And because I hold back, I give the impression I don't like the person.
Don't be afraid to be yourself. Don't be afraid to fall in love. And most of all don't be afraid of what could happen...it will keep you from living your life.
