Tattoo...

So I have had a LOT of people ask me about my tattoo -- so here are the answers :)

-- Why "Breathe" -- I kind of explained this a bit above. Most of you have been following my blog since the beginning, so you know some of the things that I went through. Those things are over, and will in some way always be a part of me. But life changes us. It tends to make us stronger when we think we can't make it. I read a quote the other day and I loved it "Strength isn't about how much we can handle until we break. It's about how much you can handle after you break" And sometimes we just have to stop and breathe, take it all in, and realize that it will be okay.  Taking time to breathe can also come in handy when you are mid-anxiety attack --  haha.

-- Location -- This was important to me for a couple of reasons. 1. It is by my heart -- it is very personal, the word, the event, the people.  2. It over my lungs -- you need your lungs to breathe.  3. -- It is supposed to be one of the most painful places to be tattooed, and in a way it represents the pain that I went through. 4. -- it is easy to hide ;) When I am 80 I highly doubt I am going to be wearing a bikini...

-- And lastly -- yes it is real :)

Through life we change. Sometimes we change into the people we are expected to be. And sometimes we become the person that we feel we were always meant to be. People come and go -- sometimes for good, and sometimes they come back. Live with no regret, say what you mean, do what makes you happy -- because if you can't be happy what is the point? And when people tell you that you've changed, it's because you stopped living life their way...remember you are living for you, not for them.

"We should all learn to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets"

So..

I did it -- I did something crazy irrational and impulsive. Well kind of impulsive...

I thought about this for a long time -- and I had debated for a long time.

Over the past almost 2 years there have been so many highs, and so many low lows.

I am just now regaining a relationship that is so very important to me.

A friendship that I though was lost forever.

I can't even begin to describe how much this means to me.

I guess to just simply say that I am so grateful, and blessed is enough.

The one thing that I have learned through this all --

With all the ups and downs of life --

Is to take time to stop and breathe --

This is especially true when you are cursed with anxiety like I am...

So in memory of where I have been, and where I am going, and just to always remember...