the right kind of wrong...

we are so perfect…and so wrong for one another

i like the idea of “us”

in fact i kind of love it

maybe that is the issue…

in so many ways i think we are what the other needs

but is it possible to have too much passion?

not just the bedroom kind – but the life kind…

you asked if i know how much you like me

i don’t...

or perhaps i do and don’t trust it

not that i don’t trust you

but more that it would stay that way

that much – forever

i can’t begin to explain the confusion in me

i always know – what i feel, what i want

you changed it.

all of it.

i am strong – unemotional

you could make me cry

i like you – i dare say i would fall in love with you…quickly

we have too much in common

we would kill each other

we have too much passion

you would feed my crazy

we would be perfect lovers & friends

we would never be comfortable –

we are like fire and gasoline…

we had a moment – but we didn’t know what to do with it

but i don’t think it has passed

i think it needs time – the right time

and i don’t know if that we tried now it would work

but i do want to try…

i am afraid that it will fade though

and you will change your mind

about me…us

i feel like i need to date him

not because i think it will work

but because i need to know it won’t

i think he needs that as well…

it’s not fair – i know

but i know that is what i need to do

i am not going to ask you to wait for me

because that’s not fair…or right

and i don’t want to know about your “girls”

because it hurts…

but i do think we will have our time…

and i think both of our lives will change as a result

and we will want to come home to each other

and i will probably spill on your  couches too often

and we will have more passion & love then most people dream about

but it needs to be at the right time…

as much as we both want it to be now

i don’t think either of us is ready…

and we would mess it up

i’m not really sure what i am saying…

but i guess i am saying…i like you…

a lot…

you terrify me...