I am loved...I think I know by who...but they insist on not putting their name on the card.
Thank you Secret Admirer...
Confession...
Confession. Looking at photgraphy blogs and bridal shoots kind of makes me sad. Sometimes when I go to my mom’s I look at my dress, and get sad inside. Part of me wonders if I’ll ever wear it.
You know how most girls spend their whole lives planning their weddings? Imagining what it would be like? I have never been able to picture myself married. Having children. Or even growing old. Maybe that is why I kind of went along with my engagement. I didn’t know how it was supposed to feel.
You know how most girls spend their whole lives planning their weddings? Imagining what it would be like? I have never been able to picture myself married. Having children. Or even growing old. Maybe that is why I kind of went along with my engagement. I didn’t know how it was supposed to feel.
And he said...
I read his blog as often as he posts...since the day his wife died.
"i used to laugh
at her, calling her:
“thief”
“junkie”
and countless other
words that
would have been less than
flattering if they’d
been overheard by
anyone around us.
but to her,
to us,
these words
were the way we
showed love.
it was the teasing
that made us smile,
because between us,
we both knew
that me calling her a
no calorie sweetener junkie
or a yellow packet thief
meant that i
noticed the little things,
that i knew
her better than
anyone else in the world."
One day...I'll find someone that loves me as much as he still loves her.
"i used to laugh
at her, calling her:
“thief”
“junkie”
and countless other
words that
would have been less than
flattering if they’d
been overheard by
anyone around us.
but to her,
to us,
these words
were the way we
showed love.
it was the teasing
that made us smile,
because between us,
we both knew
that me calling her a
no calorie sweetener junkie
or a yellow packet thief
meant that i
noticed the little things,
that i knew
her better than
anyone else in the world."
One day...I'll find someone that loves me as much as he still loves her.
Monday...
Couple of things for a Monday...
I don't understand people that make it such a point to want to be out of my life...then check my blog....daily. If you don't like me, don't want anything to do with me. Why do you want to know what is going on in my life?
This sleeping thing is really becoming an issue. Saturday night I decided I would try to just sleep on my own. Meaning non-medicated sleep. Instead I tossed and turned all night, resulting in maybe 2 hours of good sleep. I had a dream the other night that my hair was falling out in handfuls...so of course when I woke up I consulted Dr. Google...apparently it means..."Sense of having no control over a situation." I have racked my brain and have come to no conclusion as to what I feel I have no control over. But I do know there has to be something that is causing me not to sleep. All I know is I am ready to sleep well, not have a headache all the time, feel rested and relaxed...maybe someday.
I don't understand people that make it such a point to want to be out of my life...then check my blog....daily. If you don't like me, don't want anything to do with me. Why do you want to know what is going on in my life?
This sleeping thing is really becoming an issue. Saturday night I decided I would try to just sleep on my own. Meaning non-medicated sleep. Instead I tossed and turned all night, resulting in maybe 2 hours of good sleep. I had a dream the other night that my hair was falling out in handfuls...so of course when I woke up I consulted Dr. Google...apparently it means..."Sense of having no control over a situation." I have racked my brain and have come to no conclusion as to what I feel I have no control over. But I do know there has to be something that is causing me not to sleep. All I know is I am ready to sleep well, not have a headache all the time, feel rested and relaxed...maybe someday.
My Pups...
I haven't posted any pictures of the puppies for a bit...so here ya go. Most normal 25 year olds go out on Saturday nights...not me. I spent part of the night laying my mom mom's kitchen floor as she cooked taking picture so the dogs. Then decided to be productive by FINALLY hanging up 5 loads of laundry that have been laying on my bedroom floor for the past 4 weeks...yes I said 4 weeks. Now I am trying to catch up on editing photos...check out Samantha Jane for some cute pics of an adorable family....
Miss Sass (Sydnee) my little one...
Goodbye...
I said goodbye to someone the other night...
Someone for the past 5 years that has been in the back of my mind
I keep telling myself that the timing just wasn't right
That it will work out another time
But it has never seemed to be "our" time...
I said goodbye to someone the other night...
Someone that always seems to be going in different direction
I keep telling myself that next time with him will be different
That if it's meant to work out it will
But I have a hard time understanding why...
I said goodbye to someone the other night...
Someone that I hope will come back to me
I keep telling myself it might be for the best
That he couldn't give me enough
But in the back of my mind I know I am lying to myself...
Life As I See It Monthly Photo Challenge...
Okay so here is the "deal"...I thought it would be fun to do a photo challenge with whoever would like to participate!
Each month a topic will be posted on the blog and sent in an email to participants. You will have till the last day of the month at midnight (MST) to email your photo. If you are late you entry will not be eligible. To keep things anonymous and fair no names will be posted on photos and an outside sources will pick each topic and judge all photos. When the winners are chosen their name will be posted, ranked 1st 2nd and 3rd. If you wish to have your blog or website linking to the Challenge Blog please let me know and I can add it.
NO PHOTOSHOPPING or other digital manipulation. this contest is about photography, not about one's expertise with a graphical application. This does not apply to photographic techniques contained within a camera's abilities (i.e. a manual shutter release used at night to capture fireworks or moving traffic). Nor does it apply to CROPPING an image. Because of varying darkroom techniques, this usually happens in some form anyway and is therefore allowed here.
This challenge should be fun, force you to look at things differently and more creatively. The more the merrier, so feel free to forward on to your photog friends. If they are interested have them email me to be added to the distribution.
Let me know if you have any other questions!
Sammy
Each month a topic will be posted on the blog and sent in an email to participants. You will have till the last day of the month at midnight (MST) to email your photo. If you are late you entry will not be eligible. To keep things anonymous and fair no names will be posted on photos and an outside sources will pick each topic and judge all photos. When the winners are chosen their name will be posted, ranked 1st 2nd and 3rd. If you wish to have your blog or website linking to the Challenge Blog please let me know and I can add it.
NO PHOTOSHOPPING or other digital manipulation. this contest is about photography, not about one's expertise with a graphical application. This does not apply to photographic techniques contained within a camera's abilities (i.e. a manual shutter release used at night to capture fireworks or moving traffic). Nor does it apply to CROPPING an image. Because of varying darkroom techniques, this usually happens in some form anyway and is therefore allowed here.
This challenge should be fun, force you to look at things differently and more creatively. The more the merrier, so feel free to forward on to your photog friends. If they are interested have them email me to be added to the distribution.
Let me know if you have any other questions!
Sammy
Service Op...
Calling all photographer friends, make up artists and hair peeps, this is AH--MAZING!!!
SHARE IT, SIGN UP!!!
Watch the YOUTUBE video!
My favorite girl Kristen and her sis are wanting to organize this for SLC so let me know if you are interested in getting involved and helping out this holiday season!
If you don't live in ...Utah you can do it anywhere you are located!
http://www.help-portrait.com/#/contactHelp-Portrait
Love...
"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. If you don’t start with that, what are you going to end up with?" -- Meet Joe Black
So what happens when you find this...and it slips through your fingers? Do we get another chance to make it right? Will someone else come along?
I don't believe that there is just one person out there for us. But I do believe that we can let the hurt, fear and emotion from past relationships cloud our judgement.
I am always the first to point this out in others when they are not being fair to me in a relationship. But I don't think I have ever really noticed how I do the same thing myself.
We all have walls and baggage. It's part of living life and the joys and pains associated with it. But if we never allow ourselves to have the passion for someone what do we really expect to end up with in the end?
So what happens when you find this...and it slips through your fingers? Do we get another chance to make it right? Will someone else come along?
I don't believe that there is just one person out there for us. But I do believe that we can let the hurt, fear and emotion from past relationships cloud our judgement.
I am always the first to point this out in others when they are not being fair to me in a relationship. But I don't think I have ever really noticed how I do the same thing myself.
We all have walls and baggage. It's part of living life and the joys and pains associated with it. But if we never allow ourselves to have the passion for someone what do we really expect to end up with in the end?
Past...
I know you can't find the future in the past.
But sometimes it haunts me.
And I can't seem to see the future.
But sometimes it haunts me.
And I can't seem to see the future.
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