falling...

falling in love

it sounds so simple

effortless

the simple story of boy meets girl...

but life is never simple

boy meets girl

girl falls

boy pretends

girl try's to hold on

boy lets go

girl try's harder

boy leaves

girl cries

boy moves on

.  .  .  .  .  .  .

trust...

“you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.” 

 - Marilyn Monroe

I love the meaning that you can find in a few simple words. 

Trust. 

What does it really mean?

It will change from one moment to the next. 

Others will disappoint you. 

Let you down.

Break your heart. 

Betray you. 

Unknowingly - Unintentionally 

Trust.

It's believing in yourself. 

It's trusting in God. 

That when it all does fall apart. 

And you are left broken. 

That you will be okay. 

year...

i have this voice of passion within me

that will not be silenced

it fights for something more

more life

more love

more heart

it wants to feel all the bad

the dirty and ugly

the part we hide…even from ourselves

it yearns to document them

see them

hold them close

and feel them

become part of them

.  .  .  .  .  .  .  .

i thrive capturing emotion

passion

moments

my goal for this year  

to see it

in natural form

the dark grit

the photographs that make you feel

i want emotion

i want to feel it

i want pain, joy, confusion, clarity

i want it all

in life we have highs

and lows

 moments that are perfect

more that aren't

 put our hearts in

attempt to take them out

 get hurt

 hurt others

 show our strength

hide our weakness

put up walls

hide tears

 say one thing

but  mean another

show our worst

hoping they deserve our best

all it takes is for one

to prove it all wrong

to stay

to fight

live...

a couple weeks ago we buried my cousin

she was 24...

sometimes life is far too short

sometimes life is too painful 

no parent should bury their child

especially a child so young...

my heart aches for my uncle

i cry thinking of his pain...

life is short

we really should learn to live while we can... 

a season of change...

there are a few major things that are going to be changing in my life.

i recently have found foot zoning....

go ahead shake your head, think i'm nuts

it works....

i have:

 healed

realized

found peace

felt anger

relaxed

centered

i am a happy person -

but i have lost my joy

my passion

pleasure...

so a few things are going to change...

i will write more - for me

i will shoot more - of my vision

i will spend time - with myself

i will open my heart - to love

i will go back - to something that scares me

i will stand up for me - no matter what

i will not feel weak - physically, emotionally, spiritually

i will value - myself

"adversity is like a strong wind, it tares from us all of the things that can not be torn. so that we see ourselves as we really are." -- Arthur Golden

unspoken...

raw, ugly, terrifying thoughts

facing a truth, for so long hidden

buried under smiles, laughs, pretty words…

a pain so deep, a cut that never heals

anger masked with pretend forgiveness

emotional scars, words unspoken…

truth hidden beneath makeup

an act perfectly portrayed

smiles and laughter unbroken…

lies, untruths weaved tightly

distorting, destroying worth
 let it go…