"do i start a whole new book with someone else, or do i start a new chapter in an old book with my ex?"
Funny how there is a tweet for everything you could possibly be going through in your life...
There are people in life that you know so well can not see for years -- and when you see them, it is as though no time has passed. You pick up and just go on. But very rarely there is someone who will surprise you. And they will change so much, that it is like meeting a completely new and different person.
My ex is one of those people. We talk and I just stare with a puzzled look on my face, because the person that sits in front of me is in fact the same person I dated for 2 years...but is no where close to the person that I was with.
You see our relationship was really good when it was good. And really bad when it was bad. He was my first real love. We were young, he took me for granted, and I let him. And one day I woke up in our bed, and I decided it needed to end. We were going no where.
It wasn't until we broke up that we finally told each other that we loved one another. And I was heart broken for years. And I now I know so was he. I stayed single, he jumped into another relationship. I guess we all cope differently.
When I love, I love completely....recklessly.
So now he is back. Wanting a second chance to make everything right that was so wrong. And to be honest I don't know how I feel about it all. There were reasons we broke up, and most of them are not valid at this point. But one is. One very important one.
It will take time -- because right now my heart isn't ready to love. But when the time comes, is this a bridge that I should cross? Or are some things better left unknown?
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