truth....

sometimes when we ask a person for the truth we aren't fully prepared for the answer...

when i date someone i ask a lot of random questions

request random bits of information

like what you ask....

"tell me something you normally wouldn't tell me"

and most of the time i am prepared for an answer such as

"i like you more than you think i do"

or

"i once _______"

but generally i do not expect them to tell me about myself

things about myself that i don't even admit...

this is what i got:

"um...i think you are very insecure, but that can be fixed

i think there is a lot you need to let go of in order for you

to actually be happy, because i don't really think you are right now"

happiness is relative - i am happy

but i think he was speaking more in regards to relationships

which i agree

i bond myself to emotionally unavailable men

i see an end - and therefore it is safe

i fill a need they have - and in return i feel wanted

i avoid commitment - or potential of commitment

even though that is what i want...

maybe i just want someone to fight & prove

to make me feel worth it...

or that they actually do want all of me - not just part

i need them to give in - before i think i can

i need to know they are in it...

that it is really all of me that they want

or maybe i need to just let go...

no control

no sensor

just pure emotion...just me

“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those. ”
― Sylvia Plath,