Girls Dinner

Last night I met 2 of my best friends down in SLC for dinner at Mimi's. Jess Erin and I have been friends for 5+ years. I love these girls and don't get to seem them often enough. They are really what best friends are... :)

Me Jess and Erin

Baby Ella...she is such a babe! And such a happy baby!

Ryker, he is going to be a heart breaker...such a flirt!

Quotes of the Week

For those that believe no proof is necessary. For those that don't believe no proof is possible.

Fear cannot scare a person who is at peace with God. There is no room, opportunity, or place for fear in such a person. Remember, you must have faith

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Boating at Newton

Erica and I headed up to Newton this weekend to go boating with the Logan boys...it was such a good time. We all got a bit burned...but it was worth it :)

Justin Pro Wakesurfer....
The Crew.....huddled on one side of the boat to make the wake bigger.

TyTy -- with Kev coaching him

Pole dance anyone??

Roomies...we both have really skinny necks...haha

Kev's snake print speedo....and.....haha JK

Me....cheesing it

Me and TyTy

Little Bro's Wedding

So my little brother got married...kind of crazy! Below is a picture from the day he received his endowment. This picture is priceless to me for one reason. I lost my grandfather when I was 8, he had a heartattack. But we are blessed that he had an identical twin brother Jim. Jim is amazing and comes and supports our family so well. It has given us a chance to grow older with our grandpa :)

The parents Mike, my Mom, Whit, Jake, Tracee, Daddy

The kids: Tyanna, Kohnor, Jake, me, Tawnee

Bridesmaids with Jake

Fam: me, Kohnor, Ty, Tawn, Daddy, Tracee

Me, Whit, Jake, Kohnor

The little brothers and I...

Catching Up...

Oh my, a lot has happened. Things that I don't really want to talk about to be honest. Most of you already know, and a few don't. But to sum it up the last 3 weeks of my life have not been awesome. I have had my heart broken in ways I can't even begin to explain. I have faced challenges of anxiety I didn't even know existed, so paralyzing that I honestly didn't know if I would survive it. Every day has gotten a little easier, but the pain is still there. And I wonder if it will ever completely go away. I have been through break ups, I have lost friends, but nothing like this. I wake up in the morning waiting for the pain to be gone, the sick feeling in my stomach to leave, but it's there. The betrayal, the heartbreak, the disbelief. I know the pain will fade over time, but I don't believe it will ever completely go away. This time I think it was just a bit too deep to forget...to heal.

Realization

Last night as I watched the Bachelorette I had a realization. Jillian had it brought to her attention that one of the guys on the show may have a girlfriend back home and was on the show for the wrong reasons. She asked the man who it was to stand up and be a man, but he didn't. All the other men in the room knew who it was, but they didn't say a word. Now had this been a room full of women, they would have spilled and been pointing fingers.

Life is hard enough, why is it that we do things to intentionally hurt one another?

On a side note, I am making my blog private today. Email me your email address if you would like to be added. Sammy4041@gmail.com

Retirement...

So my boss is retiring...this makes me depressed. To say this least since Tuesday of last week I have not had one awesome day...they have all been pretty terrible to be honest it's been one thing after another. I am hoping that tomorrow will turn that all around. Tomorrow could make all the not awesome days totally worth it...or it could also suck...and that would not be awesome...