sometimes when we ask a person for the truth we aren't fully prepared for the answer...
when i date someone i ask a lot of random questions
request random bits of information
like what you ask....
"tell me something you normally wouldn't tell me"
and most of the time i am prepared for an answer such as
"i like you more than you think i do"
or
"i once _______"
but generally i do not expect them to tell me about myself
things about myself that i don't even admit...
this is what i got:
"um...i think you are very insecure, but that can be fixed
i think there is a lot you need to let go of in order for you
to actually be happy, because i don't really think you are right now"
happiness is relative - i am happy
but i think he was speaking more in regards to relationships
which i agree
i bond myself to emotionally unavailable men
i see an end - and therefore it is safe
i fill a need they have - and in return i feel wanted
i avoid commitment - or potential of commitment
even though that is what i want...
maybe i just want someone to fight & prove
to make me feel worth it...
or that they actually do want all of me - not just part
i need them to give in - before i think i can
i need to know they are in it...
that it is really all of me that they want
or maybe i need to just let go...
no control
no sensor
just pure emotion...just me
“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those. ”
― Sylvia Plath,
