and me being me...i talked to zac.
i knew i would.
but with 5 years.
we are bound to be friends.
but don't worry i'm not going back.
just talking.
no face to face.
(and that is not what below blog is about..."time" is just thoughts i have been having in general)
time...
there are times in life that we know what we should do...and then there is what we do.
i have been faced with this situation on more then one occasion. and generally my heart wins my logic.
why is it that leaving a person seems so difficult? why are we so afraid of the pain? pain eventually fades.
and sometimes the pain of staying with that person hurts more then leaving would.
sometimes i am logical. sometimes i give myself a time out to think.
sometimes we need that time to realize what we really can deal with.
what we can live with.
i am trying to get better at taking some time out.
to think logically.
rationally.
trying to not jump into situations that i shouldn't.
avoiding times i have to pick up pieces to a mess that isn't mine.
i have been faced with this situation on more then one occasion. and generally my heart wins my logic.
why is it that leaving a person seems so difficult? why are we so afraid of the pain? pain eventually fades.
and sometimes the pain of staying with that person hurts more then leaving would.
sometimes i am logical. sometimes i give myself a time out to think.
sometimes we need that time to realize what we really can deal with.
what we can live with.
i am trying to get better at taking some time out.
to think logically.
rationally.
trying to not jump into situations that i shouldn't.
avoiding times i have to pick up pieces to a mess that isn't mine.
Sometimes...
Sometimes I feel like screaming...just because.
Because I am bored...
Because I am irritaed...
Because I am tired...
Because I feel stuck...
Because althought I know I am freaking out I feel justified...
If only men could understand the feeling of knowing you are being crazy and really have no control over stopping.
Because I am bored...
Because I am irritaed...
Because I am tired...
Because I feel stuck...
Because althought I know I am freaking out I feel justified...
If only men could understand the feeling of knowing you are being crazy and really have no control over stopping.
Never...
You know it never amazes me what people think they can get away with...or what they think you will put up with. I know I can be a pushover. But if you don't stand up for yourself from time to time...who else will?
Full Circle...
Funny how sometimes on life things come full circle. When we mess things up I think that we are always given a second chance. Whether that second chance is as good as the first...I'm not sure. And this time...it's not ideal.
I broke things off with Zac. I haven't talked to him in nearly 4 weeks. I am proud of myself. And I feel a lot better. Now enter in more drama. That boy...the one that was now married. He is soon not to be married. And it is so confusing. No I am not jumping into anything. Yes there are still feelings there. It's just really hard to know what to do. How to act and what is acceptable in this type of situation. Slow is better. Friends is probably the best idea. But I just can't seem to process it all.
I broke things off with Zac. I haven't talked to him in nearly 4 weeks. I am proud of myself. And I feel a lot better. Now enter in more drama. That boy...the one that was now married. He is soon not to be married. And it is so confusing. No I am not jumping into anything. Yes there are still feelings there. It's just really hard to know what to do. How to act and what is acceptable in this type of situation. Slow is better. Friends is probably the best idea. But I just can't seem to process it all.
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