To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. Alternatively, the dream refers to drastic changes that are happening in your life. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits.
To see a killer in your dream, suggests that an essential aspect of your emotions have been cut off. You feel that you are losing your identity and your individuality. Alternatively, this dream may represent purification and the healing process. You are standing up for yourself and putting a dramatic end to something.
To dream that you are murdered, suggests that some important and significant relationship has been severed and you are trying to disconnect yourself from your emotions. It also represents your unused talents.
To dream that you have been stabbed, signifies your struggle with power. You may be experiencing feelings of inadequacy and defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be feeling betrayed as the popular phrase goes, "being stabbed in the back"
There are a lot of things going on in my life. And to be honest I am confused about most of them. Photography is taking off, and it is wonderful, I love it. I wish I just had someone to do all the stuff I don't want to do. The templates, the design all that stuff. I just don't have the time, and feel like it takes away from the part I love. I am also planning my first wedding. This will be easy, I have done event planning for the past 5 years at work...I am interested to see if I enjoy it or not.
I have been talking to that boy again. (told you I would go back) I think I am a masochist. Same pattern Good for a bit, then he will start to pull away. I'll freak, we'll fight, I'll write him off. Then we will talk again. I am being the dumb girl and giving him the benefit of the doubt. I know I need to cut that tie. But we always remember the good. And right now things are good. But I know that at some point they are going to go bad. I think I know that he will never give 100% and I can't always give 110%. But why is it I can't just turn my back. I mean I am the girl that broke off her engagement and didn't speak to him again. Why can't I just give in and have a clean break. Why can't I let go? I keep asking myself this question. Why does it have to be different?
I have so many great guys I could be dating. Ones that are honestly willing to do about anything to date me. But this one, I can't let go of. I know in a lot of ways I make him sound worse then he is. He honestly is a sweetheart, is always nice to me, has never yelled at me or gotten mad at me. He always opens my door, pays for me whatever we do. But then there is just that feeling that I get. That I don't know if I could ever be enough. This could be my own insecurity. He tells me how amazing I am. How I am the only girl that it doesn't freak him out to think about marrying me. But then tells me that I am wasting my time. I don't stand up for myself enough. The one person I have a hard time standing up to.
I guess you can't make someone else have passion that isn't there, and it isn't fair to wait around and see if they "get" it back. But I'll probably wait anyhow. Because at this point I am so invested in the relationship that I can't deal with how broken I would be if I turned my back. And if I wanted to, I don't know that I could right now.
I wish I could say that I didn't know how you feel. I had a boyfriend in University that I loved andhe loved me but for some reason I had reservations with him just like you have with your guy. He treated me well and would do anything for me but there just wasn't the same connection to him that I found with my husband. It was really hard to break up with him but we both new it was the right thing to do even though we didn't know why. I hope you find the strength to figure out what is best for you. Good luck and I love you!
ReplyDeleteWith photography taking off, perhaps you could pay someone else to do the stuff you don't want to do.
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